Monday, December Villa5, 2011

"You're healthy."...never sounded so profound and important to me before.  For the past 4 weeks my health was in question and for the last 2wks I was mentally preparing to hear the worst.  My doctor has told me information that i didn't share with anyone and felt the need not to until all tests were done and results were looked over.  The mister knew I was worried but I don't think he knew how concerned and scared I was.
{As a mother/woman I feel we instinctively shelter certain fears and anxieties in order for the family to "continue on without worry"...it's not to hide or not to communicate fully our emotions,...it's just to "protect" them.  Hard to put into words.  Anyway...}
My Lymph Nodes around my groin area that were swollen has decreased in size and my white blood cell count has significantly lowered from what it was 2wks ago.  The antibiotics are doing what they are suppose to do and my immune system is fighting whatever it has caught.
When the doctor looked at me and told me the good news, I literally heard myself exhale. 
I removed the medical robe and tossed it in the trash.  I felt like I dodged a bullet. 
I told myself, "girl, you're good.  You're fine.  Now practice what you preach.  Be present. Be satisfied. Be happy."  Writing this down I feel like I'm such an "OA" but man, your health is everything!  It's like a battery, without it you're just a shell.  Thank God my battery is still good, now I just have to maintain it.
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For day 5 of our activity advent calendar we sat in a circle and talked about how we felt about being in a family of 5.  We went around in a circle and each told the rest what they loved most about being in this family.
The Mister:  "How I always want to be around my family because they are fun and I love just hanging out doing whatever"
The Toddler: "We love to give hugs" ~good one =)
The Teen: "I just like to hang out with you guys, we have fun!" ~I'll take that!!
Me:  "I love that I want to be surrounded with you 4 all the time* So...do you think we should add a 6th?!?!"

A lot was said and shared that evening, a lot was felt aswell.  We know we are blessed.  We know at anytime, something or everything can be lost or taken from us.
The word that evening was definitely: Cherish

Courtesy of Ulyssis ~Villapando4 2010 Christmas Picture

2011 Villapando5 Christmas Picture to come...